“We do not believe in ourselves until someone reveals that deep inside us something is valuable, worth listening to, worthy of our trust, sacred to our touch. Once we believe in ourselves we can risk curiosity, wonder, spontaneous delight or any experience that reveals the human spirit.”-e. e. cummings
Honestly, I don't know how I do it. Stay so happy, and content with my life. Only few know how. And i think reaching this point of mind is one thing that is very hard to find. You can not search for this type of happiness, it comes too you.
Few grasp on to it, but its the epiphany you have once the idea of this type of happiness comes to you. We all seek Nirvana, but honestly, Nirvana is wrong in alot of ways. I could sit here and argue with my computer about the idea of it, but I won't. I wish I had a name for this type of happiness. I'll name it Nico for now.
Nico is a type of happiness that comes once you learn to look at everything for what it really is. For example; Realizing that a friend you've always had, is more than just a friend. That friend is really one of those friends who would die for you, and honestly mean it.
Nico is when you start to appreciate your friends, and tell them how good of a friend they are, and consistently remind them.
Nico is not just a happiness though, it is also a state of mind, when you really realize things. For example; I was walking down the hall today, and everything slowed down, i heard a funny conversation and laughed at it, smiled an went on my way. I saw this girl walking down the hallway opposite of me, and she also had a smile on, but it faded. As if humor wasn't good enough for her, as if the idea of being happy wasn't enough. Being able to Nico is to keep walking down that hall with idea's roaming in your eyes, and a mouthful of happiness that's waiting to be talked about.
Nico, is really all about realizing thing's you thought you realized before, but no. Its not like that. Nico is something special, once the idea of wanting happiness, but not like striving for it. Nico comes in time, you have to work for it. Once you are able to go to sleep, and think to yourself "life is good" than you have reached Nico. Nico affects your life more than you think. Stupid problems seem to fade, or become pointless. Nico smoothes everything out for you. Nico is utter blissfulness.
I really owe my idea of life to Stephen Christian. No, he didn't teach me this idea of Nico. But once stepped on a path for me to follow his in foot steps.
I have all these ambitions and dreams that i want to succeed in. And that's what's wrong with the world. I don't see ambitions or dreams at all, all i see is greed, and ungratefulness. Nico is not about that. And I am glad I have reached Nico, because now I've learned that there is more to living than being alive. Even if im 24, with a job at a local coffee shop, and no love life, at least i know, that theres more to living than being alive, and that i can go to sleep, and tell myself that "Life is Good."
To the people that really helped me reach this; Stephen, Bella, Erika, and Nico.
1 comment:
Zarina, I love you so much. You are hands down one of the most amazing people I have ever met in my entire life. And this was a superbly written blog. I'm glad I have helped you reach Nico, and I wish I could express to you how much you have helped me. And basically, earlier, I was thinking about how I've reached this point of happiness in my life. And you named it perfectly. You should get "Nico" coined. Tonight, in bed, I'm going to be saying, "Life is Nico."
I love you. Thank you (:
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