Shady Business.

Well, I feel like I'm constantly restricted by shadows, and I've climbed some mountains that i thought I'd never tackle. But lately I've been feeling as if I'm a terrible person. Even though one on one, I'm a great person. and i know it. But I've also realized I'm a horrible person.

I've always felt like I've tried to separate myself from alot of people, and i still feel as if i have. but yesterday i felt as if i was the most horrible person. I mean it wasn't really that bad. I just didn't realize i could be that rude... when i tried. I always felt as if i was a really nice person, and a good hearted person. But yesterday i realized that I'm just human and every one had a dark side.

I think i don't like being confronted with things I've done wrong, and that's my problem. I should fix that.
But i live in this shady world, this empty world, just because I'm so careful to make sure i hurt nobody, but when i do, shit... ha. I mean I'm not a bad person. I'm usally the one telling people to be nicer to people. But maybe I'm just being a hypocrite. when i can't be nice to one person. Ahhhhhhhh, I'll never be able to tell you why i do those things i do. Because i don't even know.

But god, I'm trying to a be even a better person.
And I'll try as hard as i can.



Peace,
ZarinaK